I Feel Guilty and Avoidant

I Feel Guilty and Avoidant
You have bought some perfumes with your credit card.
You are creating this roller coaster in your living room while listening to the soundtrack of 'Burlesque'.
You secretly know you want to open them and use the perfumes on yourself.
However, the early conditioning of your frivolous money spending had not been met with positive and encouraging reception.
You feel guilty and avoidant to treat yourself with treats.
You grew up in an atmosphere of invalidation which resulted in ambivalence in treating yourself kindly with the joys of gifts.
When completing this coaster, you decide to use these emotions for good by naming how you are feeling.
Somehow, by naming it as something useful, you have the courage to pamper yourself once again.
Creativity again came to the rescue and melted your ambivalence.
You open the cellophane packaging around the perfumes.
You open the packages.
You hold the perfumes in your hands, so heavy and luxurious.
A smile slowly appears on your face as you press the nozzle a couple of time to prime the pump.
A mist of perfume hits your clothes and the scent of luxury allures you in a sensual joy.
No longer guilty and avoidant, you are pleasured and in love.

Excitement: 6.22 (High)
Intensity: 7.31 (High)
Nausea: 3.66 (Medium)